She gon' take everything I own
If I let you go
I can't let you go, damn if I let you go


Ring the alarm
I been through this too long
But I'll be damned if I see another chick on your arm
Won't you ring the alarm
I been through this too long
But I'll be damned if I see another chick on your arm


Tell me how should I feel
When you made me belong
And the thought of you just touchin' her
Is what I hate most
I don't want you, but I want it
And I can't let it go
To know you give it to her like you gave it to me, come on


- Ring The Alarm, Beyonce

All the cheating and lies have been confirmed. You got hurt, you cried, you got hold of yourself, you finished it with him, you cried, you tried to think things over, you cried some more, then you tried to move one. Yes, tried with -ed. Alam mo yun.. I broke up with him and all he can say is "Hindi naman seryoso eh.." The relationship with his cousin that is. And I tell him "ayoko na" and all he kept on saying was "ayoko". What kind of person is that? I've been through so much with him and I felt all kinds of feelings and emotions all thos times. I just can't trust him anymore and I DO deserve someone better than him. Letting go of a person you spent almost half of your life with is not a joke at all. There's this feeling of "Oh, we'll still be together someday". But I know that if I really want to move on, I shouldn't entertain those thoughts. I know after I move on, it'll be HARD for me to open myself to anyone else. Being commited to a certain person is so stuck in my whole being. Well stupid me I had no idea I was the only one in the relationship who's so loyal to that commitment.


If I have the chance to turn back time, I wouldn't change anything. We cried, we laughed, we fought, we made up.. All those things.. It's a wonderful stage in my life. Eventhough Erick made the stupidest decisions in life, I still treat him as a wonderful stage in my life.


Now I don't know what will happen next. I don't even know where to start! I'll update you again ok?

They say long-distance relationship doesn't work. I didn't believe them. When you and your man had been together for years, I thought no distance can separate them. But what if you left unresolved issues with him? Like uncertainties, doubts and hunches of cheating. You thought everything will be just fine. But what if one day, someone added you on friendster and its your boyfriend's and his other girl's account? And you discover ALL the lies.. Well, not all the lies because you were not with your boyfriend all the time. And what if your boyfriend's a professional liar and cheater and it's not the only time he did it? And what if he tells you "Wala akong ginagawang masama." and "Wala lang yun."? AND the interesting part is what if you're boyfriend's other girl is his cousin! Go figure.

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=29184505

Additional: Okay, Erick's telling me i made him look stupid because of this post. He said they're not having a relationship. They're just r-e-a-l-l-y close. You think?