All the cheating and lies have been confirmed. You got hurt, you cried, you got hold of yourself, you finished it with him, you cried, you tried to think things over, you cried some more, then you tried to move one. Yes, tried with -ed. Alam mo yun.. I broke up with him and all he can say is "Hindi naman seryoso eh.." The relationship with his cousin that is. And I tell him "ayoko na" and all he kept on saying was "ayoko". What kind of person is that? I've been through so much with him and I felt all kinds of feelings and emotions all thos times. I just can't trust him anymore and I DO deserve someone better than him. Letting go of a person you spent almost half of your life with is not a joke at all. There's this feeling of "Oh, we'll still be together someday". But I know that if I really want to move on, I shouldn't entertain those thoughts. I know after I move on, it'll be HARD for me to open myself to anyone else. Being commited to a certain person is so stuck in my whole being. Well stupid me I had no idea I was the only one in the relationship who's so loyal to that commitment.


If I have the chance to turn back time, I wouldn't change anything. We cried, we laughed, we fought, we made up.. All those things.. It's a wonderful stage in my life. Eventhough Erick made the stupidest decisions in life, I still treat him as a wonderful stage in my life.


Now I don't know what will happen next. I don't even know where to start! I'll update you again ok?