December 26, 2006

In the backyard.. which is a golf course by the way. ;P

MALL

In car

with PJ

with who else

with Em-em

more pics from the three of us :D

Today is an okay day. I love shopping but I hate it at the same time because I always end up broke afterwards. :(

I miss Erick. I hope we could chat tomorrow.

Have a Happy New Year! :D

Florida

We just reached here in Tito Paul's (my stepdad's brother) house here in Florida. OH MY. It is so pretty here I swear I'm going to live here one day. The weather is oh-so-perfect! Grabe at this moment nagsnosnow sa Virginia back home pero dito... close to Philippines' climate. Ang saraaap.. :D Haha. Sobrang nagsawa na ko sa two layers of long sleeves, sarap magspag strap and flipflops again. :D Ganda pa ng house nila dito, backyard nila golf course na may lake. Medyo scary nga lang kasi may crocodiles daw dun sa lake. Yikes! Hahaha. Tsaka Arriane and I were trying to go sa backyard to take pictures pero nakakatakot naman kasi on our way yung dating nung golf balls. Haha. I think we're going to the mall later. Yay. Pero kami lang yata nila ma kasi sila Tito Paul, Tito Pat and their mom naglalaro ng Poker. Haha. Yung mom kasi nila addict daw sa sugal. As in to the point na binenta niya bahay niya dati to buy a small place in Vegas. Haha. Kaya expected na na magsusugal lang siya the whole stay dito. :D


Christmas eve na bukas! Wala pa ko gift kay ma and Arriane. I have to buy gifts later. :D Merry Christmas again ya'll!


We're having baked ribs for lunch and I heard Tita Ut's (which is a Filipina by the way) is the best. Yumm.. Ay Arriane just told me she really likes PJ, Tito Paul and Tita Ut's 13-year old son. Hahaha. Sabi ba naman.. "5 years.. Pwede pa!!!" Hahaha. Kasi ganda talaga kaya ng mix ng American and Filipino.


Ok, that's all. Later!

12/12

Today's Arriane's birthday. 18th birthday that is. We didn't celebrate like what we used to back home. In the morning, we went to Mr. Clark's (a regular customer at Chinatown) home to wrap his Christmas gifts. He treated us at Shoney's for lunch. We cam back to wrap more gifts afterwards then he dropped us off to Chinatown at 4 pm. He actually overpayed us. Ugh. He's really nice to us. :) Ling, Arriane and I had a fest, not just a dinner but a fest, at J. Milton. Haha! We always have fun dining out. When the three of us meet.. Boom.. we just talk and talk, laugh and laugh and take pictures and take pictures. Hahaha. Yep, a million pictures. Hahaha! Back to Milton, after an hour and a half Joe (Arriane's unofficial boyfriend - whatever that is) came then after 5 minutes Mom came. Then we talked, laughed and took more pictures then we went home. :D I came home with mom, Ling went home by herself, and Arriane went to Joe's home with Joe. Haha.

Today's a day full of gift-wrapping. I think tomorrow we'll buy more Christmas gifts. That's more gift-wrapping for me. Thanks to Arriane's gifted-artistic-talented hands for gift-wrapping. (BIG AHEM) :D hehe..

Anyway, I got straight A's this sem. Yay for me. :D I didn't get that in RM. Haha! It was just crazily hard studying in that school. Well, its okay because I learned a lot too. :) Talking about RM I remembered my friends back there. :D I miss you all!!!

Oh, in 11 days we're off to Florida. Yay! Florida (i.e. beaches and bigger malls) here we come! Hahaha. I have to bake more pastries for families and friends now. Advanced Merry Christmas! :D

I miss you babe. :(

An update at last :D

It's been a while.. :D Well well well. I was busy because of school and work. Tapos nadagdagan pa ko ng second job last week sa hospital. Well ang problema lang naman is yung time management. Kasi madali lang naman school dito but they require you to do a lot of things tapos sabayan pa ng finals. Grabe I can't believe it matatapos na tong sem na to. It's so fast! 3 months and 3 weeks. Haha. Tapos lagyan mo pa ng sangkatutak na breaks (like Thanksgiving break) and no classes. Hehe.. Hmm.. naenjoy ko naman ang mga nakalipas na araw kahit papano. Ay! Since my last post nga pala.. I now have my Fifi (my laptop, FYI)! :D Fifi kasi FE series siya ng Sony. Haha. Walang kokontra! Hahaha! We also had our first snow encounter today. Yeah it's pretty alright but the weather freezes me to death. Haha! But hey, I still like the snow.


I'm in school right now and as usual we're waiting for mom kasi may work siya today and around 2:30 pa break niya. Yeah I know I should be driving already! Everyone's been telling me that but I always tell them the one thing that's holding me back on taking the driver's test.. PARALLEL PARKING. Hahaha! I swear I don't want to fail the test so I have to learn how to master that first. Erick taught me that months ago and I did get it but I have to practice again cause as I said, I don't want to screw up the driving test. Tapos problem pa pala no one has the time, courage and skill to teach me. Haha! So ayun.. si kawawang nanay namin na naging driver na. Haha. Okay, I'll take the test anytime soon nakokonsensya naman ako.


Arriane and I enjoy dining out around the city lalo na pag inaantay namin si ma from work. We tried out J. Milton the other day. I know you can see that place everywhere in the US but hey, it hasn't been a long time since we came here. Haha. Anyway, I find it weird that their rice is submerged in water. As in sa buffet bar nila andun yung rice nakalubog sa tubig. Eww.. Ano yun lugaw? Hahaha. But anyway ako nagbar tapos si Arriane umorder.


Arriane: Gusto ko ng gulay. Kinakain ba to? (Points at the leaf that's at the corner of her plate)
Kristal: Ewan. Sige! Lettuce yata yan!
Arriane chewed on the leaf.
After 3 seconds.. she spitted it out.
Kristal: Oh bakit?
Arriane: Kadiri! Lasang dahon!
Kristal: Sige kainin mo!
Arriane: Sige ikaw! Isipin mo parang kumakain ka ng African Violets!


Hahahaha! I find that really funny.. Then afterwards nakita namin that that same kind of plant was all over the salad bar as a decoration. Haha.


Anyway, it's Ling ling's birthday today and we're going to treat her somewhere. Haha! Can't wait to meet up with her. I'll post pictures later. :P

Ling, My Birthday and Climbing

Hmm.. What happened this past few weeks? Well well well.. Nagsleepover si Ling for 2 nights. That's Wednesday to Friday. Yeah it was fun but may work ako nung Thursday tapos she had to leave early in the morning with mom nung Friday kasi may work sila. Kaya yun di kami masyado nakapagbonding. Haha. But anyway nung wednesday naman nagmall kami after school then nag-dine out kaya fun na rin. Naks naman nagmall. Haha! Kala mo naman kung anong mall. Due to my frugality wala akong nabili. Ay wait meron pala! I bought 3 miniskirts that were on clearance for $1.98 each. Haha! Oh diba? Nung una may nagustuhan ako na skirt, it was on sale like $15 but when I asked Ling she hesitated. Kasi si Ling ang reyna ng kakuriputan. Haha! As in ang galing ng mata niya. She can immediately find good items in a store that's really cheap. Now when I say cheap, not just cheap cheap but Hell-it-really-is cheap! Like not even a dollar! Haha! Anyway, when I saw those skirts sobrang naglaway ako. Hehe.. No one in her right mind would wear those here now for obvious reasons. But binili ko siya cause I'm super excited to come home! And I can just imagine wearing them while strolling in the beach. Aww.. It would be so nice. So while I spent $7, Arriane spent almost $200 on make-ups and clothes. Crazy.. We ate at La Esperanza after. It's a Mexican resto that Arriane loves. Since I haven't tried it yet, I agreed to eat there. Hell yeah their food was great. You know what the best part is? Libre!!! haha.. Yung chef and yung isang cook yung nagbayad. Kakilala kasi kami cause siguro kumakain din sila sa Chinatown. :D Siyempre kasama na din dun yung nagagandahan samin. Hahaha! Kunan ba naman kami ng sangkatutak na picture sa phones nila eh. Haha! Yuck, feeling celebrity. :D Binigyan pa ko ng free fried ice cream. Haha! They were really nice. Here are some pics!

Mom and I :D

Ling and Arriane

The Gang (hehe..)

Hey my birthday's coming up! Parang wala lang. Hindi ko nga napapansin na malapit na birthday ko eh. When I was still in the Philippines, months before I'm already planning stuffs like what I want from mom, how will I celebrate it, or what special thing Erick and I will do. :( So sad. Now hindi na ko makakahingi ng gift cause I'm already working (hehe..). Hindi na rin ako makakapagparty cause wala namang pupunta. Haha. And obviously wala naman si Erick dito to celebrate it with me. Pft. :( Except na lang kung may magsusurprise sakin this October. Ahem! haha! I wish ganon ako kamahal ni Erick to sell his car for a ticket. Hihi. Well i think he will if desperate measures call for an action na. Haha! He couldn't go this October cause Tita said sa summer na lang after he graduates kasi libre lang daw yung ticket and stay nila dito this October. Sayang di pa siya nakasama.. Haha. Pinipilit ba naman akong magbayad ng ticket niya para makapunta na siya ngayon. Nye.

I so miss climbing. It's something that I used to do regularly but now.. I have to drive an hour and a half just to get to a climbing facility. Argh! Sobrang kelangan ko na ng sport, well kahit exercise lang. Hehe.. Nanghihina na ko. :D

Sweaty days.. :)

Mom pursued me to give in to my urge to buy a laptop. I think I'll buy one this week. I'm still confused! Haha!

Laptop or Plane ticket to Philippines?

Ugh. Well I guess I'll just follow what mom said, I can still save for a ticket plus pocket money for a few more months. Pft.

Ne-yo + Pharell

Ne-yo was in my dream last night. Haha! In my dream I was in a resto or bar with Arriane or a friend I'm not sure anymore but I was in there and Ne-yo walked in with a friend. Hehe.. He was "appealing" in my dream. Well, he was supposed to be cause girls in my dream were swooning over him. Haha! I KNOW! He's not that good-looking but I guess I just admire him cause he's such a GREAT songwriter. Yeah, I so love his songs. It makes you feel sooo in love. Haha.


Oh my gosh. Speeking of a great writer and singer I remembered my beloved Pharell! Haha! I just LOVE and ADORE him. Argh!!! He just makes me smile. Everytime I hear Ludacris' Money Maker.. Aww.. Pharell makes me kilig. Haha! Conotic. But yeah I really do love him. Everytime I see him on commercials too (which is A LOT here in the US), it just makes me sigh (and swoon) over him. Hehe.. Anyway you get my point right? :D


Pharrell's mine!!! :D (Peace babe. :) Love you!)

Happy People

My friends made me so happy today. Thanks guys! :D As in nakachat ko buong barkada ko minus Paul. Hehe. Tapos chat kami ni Abi mayang gabi. I feel so loved today. That's just what I need. ;) I so love my friends.. Really.

I just realized something. These past few weeks I've been trying to explain the feelings I've been having. Like crying about the smallest and silliest things. I have been really sensitive and I can't fugure out what the reason was. I told Abi (my bestfriend) that it's because I'm having a hard time adjusting here emotionally. You know, friends.. Erick.. cousins.. Hell, it was hard! But just a few minutes ago I realized that my whole life in the Philippines is a big big part of me. The sad thing about it is that it's now in my past. All that has happened that are truly special to me are now in my past. AND I JUST CAN"T FREAKING ACCEPT THAT. I just can't. I'm just not ready to. I want all that has happened to me in the Philippines to be my present. The 2 months I've been here.. they're senseless. There's nothing that I did that's special to me which I know I'll remember for the rest of my life. I don't know if I'm still making sense but that's how I feel. Right now, I realized that I have to move on. Not just about Erick per se but about my entire life in the Philippines. It doesn't mean that I'll forget about it but just learn how to make the most out of my life here. I am just so stuck in the past. Well the bottom line of this post is that I should learn to look forward (without Erick- that will sure be hard) and just put the Philippines on the side of my heart cause it's occupying too much of my thoughts and my feelings. But right now, as I said, I'm not yet ready to do that. I just wish I'll learn to do this anytime soon.

I had a rough rough time these past few days. Something awful happened yesterday.. again. When I rode the car this afternoon this song played on the radio. I was like "Great.". I felt better when I sang along to this song. It just perfectly fits how I feel! Well, here it is! Sing along lovely friends.. :)

Don't Speak

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Dont Speak
No Doubt


You and me
Used to be together
Every day together
Always


I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end


It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know


Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts


Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening


As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry


Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts


It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...


You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?


Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten..

-Unwritten, Natasha Beddingfield

I just came across this picture and I just want to share it with you. This is so freaking hilarious. Hahaha! This was taken by my cousin when we were outside the house talking to Ma, Titos and Titas.. Kwentuhan lang ba. This was during the Ohio Family Reunion and it's way colder there than here. It was the coldest we've experienced in our (Arriane and I) entire life. It's so funny..

:D cold huh?

Lola already came back home to the Philippines yesterday. I so envy her. Haaay.. Anyway, I'm so excited to give Kiara [Erick's niece] my pasalubongs for her. Ang tagal kunin ni Erick sa bahay pasalubong ko. Argh. I have so much to do for school and sometimes I just get soooo lazy. You see, since it's getting cold here now [I just looked at the thermometer outside: 12 C] ang tagal na ng ubo't sipon ko. Sobrang hirap mag-adjust. Sabi nga ni Erick para kaming nasa ref. And its not even fall yet. Pa-fall pa lang. Pano na kung magfall tapos magwinter. Aaaaaahhh!!! Anyway, I have to go. Update ako later. :D

I'm here at school now. I'm just wasting time til my next class. We had our first speech a while ago in my Public Speaking class. I am really glad that I rocked it.:D Haha! My teacher said Masha (from Russia) and I did great compared to my American classmates. And after class everybody was congratulating me. Well that was just the first speech but hey, that's a big YAY for me! :D I'n a way, I raised the Filipino flag! Hahaha! It's funny how every Filipino you met or even your relatives back home expects you to outrun or excel Americans. Haha! "Itaas mo bandera ng Pilipinas!" Hahaha. Well, everybody here knows that Asians are smart. Haha! Personally, I don't think so. There are a lot of Asians who are not smart at all like robbers, rapists, bad and lazy people.. But in Mind of Mencia, a popular and really funny show in Comedy Central, did a stint where they were calling on people on the streets who are unemployed. Carlos Mencia was shouting over the megaphone "Get a job!" blah blah. Haha! It was really hilarious. And he gave a shirt to one Asians that says in the front "Only Asian without a job." Hahaha! And also there's this one time that Arriane has a test and her friend asked her if she studied, Arriane said "No." and her friend said, "Why?? You're Asian, you're supposed to study!" Haha!


It's getting cold here. Argh! I hate cold places. I can't wait to graduate and live somewhere hot. Like California and Florida. :D Yay! Then I'll go back and forth to the Philippines and happily retire there. Ahhhhh.. That's still a long way for me though. Hehe..


I'm really appreciating my cousins and friends right now. I just want to have a break from worrying about the future and thinking about what ifs. I'm trying to hold on to people that know would be there to support me and love me no matter what. I love you guys!:D

She gon' take everything I own
If I let you go
I can't let you go, damn if I let you go


Ring the alarm
I been through this too long
But I'll be damned if I see another chick on your arm
Won't you ring the alarm
I been through this too long
But I'll be damned if I see another chick on your arm


Tell me how should I feel
When you made me belong
And the thought of you just touchin' her
Is what I hate most
I don't want you, but I want it
And I can't let it go
To know you give it to her like you gave it to me, come on


- Ring The Alarm, Beyonce

All the cheating and lies have been confirmed. You got hurt, you cried, you got hold of yourself, you finished it with him, you cried, you tried to think things over, you cried some more, then you tried to move one. Yes, tried with -ed. Alam mo yun.. I broke up with him and all he can say is "Hindi naman seryoso eh.." The relationship with his cousin that is. And I tell him "ayoko na" and all he kept on saying was "ayoko". What kind of person is that? I've been through so much with him and I felt all kinds of feelings and emotions all thos times. I just can't trust him anymore and I DO deserve someone better than him. Letting go of a person you spent almost half of your life with is not a joke at all. There's this feeling of "Oh, we'll still be together someday". But I know that if I really want to move on, I shouldn't entertain those thoughts. I know after I move on, it'll be HARD for me to open myself to anyone else. Being commited to a certain person is so stuck in my whole being. Well stupid me I had no idea I was the only one in the relationship who's so loyal to that commitment.


If I have the chance to turn back time, I wouldn't change anything. We cried, we laughed, we fought, we made up.. All those things.. It's a wonderful stage in my life. Eventhough Erick made the stupidest decisions in life, I still treat him as a wonderful stage in my life.


Now I don't know what will happen next. I don't even know where to start! I'll update you again ok?

They say long-distance relationship doesn't work. I didn't believe them. When you and your man had been together for years, I thought no distance can separate them. But what if you left unresolved issues with him? Like uncertainties, doubts and hunches of cheating. You thought everything will be just fine. But what if one day, someone added you on friendster and its your boyfriend's and his other girl's account? And you discover ALL the lies.. Well, not all the lies because you were not with your boyfriend all the time. And what if your boyfriend's a professional liar and cheater and it's not the only time he did it? And what if he tells you "Wala akong ginagawang masama." and "Wala lang yun."? AND the interesting part is what if you're boyfriend's other girl is his cousin! Go figure.

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=29184505

Additional: Okay, Erick's telling me i made him look stupid because of this post. He said they're not having a relationship. They're just r-e-a-l-l-y close. You think?

It's my first official day here in Virginia. I don't know what to say. It's nice cause I get to be with Ana and mom after a long time but it's horrible cause I'm so homesick and I'm missing my dad and my friends and sissy and of course Erick BADLY. It feels like I'm just having a vacation here. Even our house looks like a rest house. Now we have to go to our school so we can inquire about enrollment. I'll try to update more often since we go online more often now. Later!

Arriane and I are here in Bong's [Arriane's suitor slash boyfriend] house. Ooooohh.. Bright's [their poodle] so cuuuuute!:D We just got here, nagswim kasi si Arriane and Em sinamahan ko lang sila. Sumakit na naman kasi likod ni Arriane cause diba nga may Scoliosis siya and the doctor advised na magswim siya regularly. Erick's at Eastwood right now, may meeting daw ng PNP hotline. Okay, hindi na naman ako makapgisip. Sinisipag na ko magupdate.:D Yay!


I crave for Kinderbueno. My new fave chocolate. :)


Pics:

Before graduating high school, Arriane and I started dreaming of having our own restaurant someday. :) I know.. a lot of people dream of having their own restaurants. Obviously it's a career goal that's not so easy to reach. So I took Nursing and Arriane took Tourism blah blah blah.. I love my course, don't get me wrong, but I still wanted to have my own resto. :) Arriane's taking baking and cooking lessons at Sylvia Reynoso Gala Culinary Arts Studio in Shaw, Pasig and I just enrolled in International School of Culinary Arts and Hotel Management in Katipunan. Yay!:D Though these are just short courses, we're extremeyly happy [especially me] that we're finally doing something productive with our "waiting-for-medical examination schedule time" aka remaining days here in the Philippines. Good luck to us!:D


Erick's in Libis right now doing the thing he loves most. [No, not clubbing but racing] And I'm kinda pissed cause he said he would text me but he still hasn't! He was here in our house from 1 pm to 9 pm and since then he still hasn't texted. Oh well. I'm not THAT pissed. Hello to years of being together, I now know every cell in his body. Well.. not all.:D haha! Nowadays, he's not the texting guy anymore. OKAY. Tinatamad na ko magisip. I'm going to dreamland now.


I WANT A LAAAAPTOOOOOOOOOP!!!:(

I'm waiting for Erick right now. When he's done taking a bath, we'll hang out at Starbucks. Since I stopped going to college, it's been a challenge for us [Erick and I] to see each other often. Hanging out, regardless where or how long, is pure bliss for us. :) I LOVE this house, Erick's house that is. :) Besides this DSL-ed computer, I love their endless supply of chocolates. Haaaaaa.. :) I'm actually chowing them right now. Heaven.:D Oh, since I mentioned DSL.. We only use dial-up internet at home that's why I always have a hard time updating this blog cause it's tooooo slooooow.. I know, I know DSL's really cheap nowadays but since we'll be out of the country soon, It really isn't that necessary. That's the reason why I'm only updating when I'm here at Erick's house. ;)


Haaaay.. How I miss my friends. :( I miss Macy. I miss Jen. I miss Paul. I miss Artus. Of course, I miss Abi. :( I actually miss the whole college experience. From the start, I really don't agree with stopping my education. It's depressing to hear my classmates having their duties at the hospital. Me? I'm doing nothing. As in nothing. In fact, because I have nothing to do on mornings, I tend to sleep at around 3 to 6 in the morning and end waking up at 2 or 3 in the afternoon. How sad and unhealthy is that? The date of our departure here in the Philippines is still unknown. All they tell is that it's soon. At first they tell us it's in October. Then November. Then December. Then January. Now di na lang ako nageexpect. Nakakahiya na kasi pag may nagtatanong when kami aalis then ilang months na nakalipas di pa rin. Don't get me wrong, I love here in the Philippines rather than in the US but what if umabot ng March? Diba parang, WTF? Nasayang lang yung isang sem ko. Sobrang nanghihinayang kasi ako coz I really want to study pa. Haaaay.. It's sad. :(


Oops.. Erick's done na. Till next time! :)